blog post-emotional stuff

well just finished playing for about another 10 minutes on the wii. trying to distract myself b/c i am anxious right now. i know i have other stuff to do just don't feel like doing it right now and i know i could just pull out a dvd and do a workout but i just can't motivate. i have to talk to dh but its impossible to call him right now and what i need to talk to him about i can't say in front of our home therapist when she is here. these are the times i run to eat or drink something calorie heavy and not do anything to let go of the stress. taking deep breathes and trying to get myself up and moving with only 10 minutes to spare before viola gets home from school. these are the times that not only having to feel emotional eating coming on but the stress anxiety doesn't help with health either. stress will cause other medical issues but also will make you gain some weight or lose weight depeneds on what end of the spectrum it feels like being on. for me is usually gain, just b/c i don't know, even if i don't eat much i tend to still gain during anxiety ridden times. guess its pms and other things in my enviroment right now that makes me want to lose control. i tend to also over-react to what someone may react to what i have to say. dh has been very defensive about certain things lately and now i have to bring up one more thing that may or may not bother him i don't know. just all in my head i guess.